Back from thailand

i'm just back from thailand.. actually is yst midnite.. haiz.. jam like hell havto sit inside the car for 10hrs.. y bcos of raya it will jam?? no idea!! bought clothes n shorts n shoe n the most i like is the diary from korea.. inside got yearly, monthly, n weekly planner.. wow.. also contain free note n more..all in one.. n is only rm20.. hehe.. at 1st ky don let me buy said expensive but i still wanted to buy.. i wan it very long le.. hehehe.. n i also bought back a 12" winnie the pooh.. originally from disney with a footbal.. hahaha.. n it's also cheap only rm9.90.. it is cheap bcos got abit cacat on the ball but nvm la.. at last my small pooh got company le.. tis time ky very tired.. drive whole day.. haiz.. pity him.. but i also didnt sleep company him lo..his bday coming soon le..still haven buy anything 4him.. dunno wan buy wat.. got no idea..wait c got go pyramid wit ai ying o not..but quite sad.. 2mr star college le.. wat also haven do.. not even touch any of my assign haiz.. wat a week i had.. haiz..i haven study also.. no more holiday till final whhich is in tis month.. how le..i dowan get d anymore.. it ruin my life.. haiz.. wat i can say about myself?? LAZY!! i need help.. anyone pls help me la.. i dowan b lazy gal.. haiz

i also feel lik wanna sick le o.. my tthroat got abit pain.. how le?? 2mr sumo havto go college o.. lucky is on the afternoon o.. wat 2do le.. tis is life.. tis week like got many things 2do lik tat but i can still sit down here waiting the time 2pass by.. omg..... i need MOTIVATION!! anyone pls give me some..thanks!

Life.......

Ha.. long time didnt update my blog.. suddenly feel wanna express something here..2day is a busy day 4me but i think is ok.. i lost my purse at asia on 26th of september which mean the last day of Gossip.. i feel so terrible where i have to act happy.. no sadness but inside my heart it is full of tears.. i just cant cheer myself up on tat time n make silly decision but luckily he didnt take it as a true one.. but i really sad.. once i reached on aroung 1 sumthing in the mid nite.. i straight away went to the bathroom.. take bath n cry as loud as i want.. is my 2nd time tat ti lost my purse.. i wondering why i'm so careless n doesn't kknow how to take care of my stuff.. haiz.. i tot i can 4get 4the next day but my mum scolded me.. n i scold her back.. she said "still don know need how much money for the ic".. n i said i'll pay back myself.. n the money she is using now is also my money wat.. she feel unhappy so do i but y cant she understand my feeling.. do she think tat i love it when my things get lost?? on tat day after scolded her i went out.. i wanted to buy shirley's present at pyramid but i dowan go le.. cos i cried till my eyes like a panda for the whole day where i have to meet all my secondary bestie 2celeb shirley's bday.. anyway i'm ok now.. n i didnt went back home sleep 4 3days.. didnt even spoke 2my mum n she know i will not talk 2her.. n on monday i went to do police report.. i was so scare tat the police wanted 2bring me 2a room.. but luckily the room is full then v have our conversation outside.. 2day i went to do my ic.. public bank n cimb bank n jpj 4my lesen.. avthing is done except 4my student id.. ic no charges.. cimb bank also no charges 4new card n new pin but the stupid public bank said wan charge me 4a new card n new pin.. also same with cimb but y one got charges n another one don hav?? haiz.. MALAYSIA!! so i straight away dowan use public bank d.. lesen also.. RM20 i wondering.. ic redo 4 2nd time is rm200 n process money of rm10 but my wan got police report so no charges but lesen wan.. but i rather pay rm20 than rm210.. crazy!! so i havto tell myslef not to lost any of my belonging.. avthing lost d still havto pay big amount of money.. where is fairness??now already a forth day i dindt talk 2my mum.. i really really angry at her.. haiz..

tis week is also study week..study week is actually a week 4us 2do our assign since it is a short sem.. but i dont think is a study week 4me but a holiday week.. hehe.. i didnt touch any of my book, assign, notes, pencil case.. n i'm going outstation 2mr.. haiz.. i know tat i got many many things 2do but i didnt touch any of it.. what m i actually doing rite now?? i also dunno n feel so tired of life n blur blur.. can anyone tell me wat to do?? i've lost my motivation!!

ppl pls bliff in what comes round goes round.. it really happened 2me.. sobzz..

It's Complicated

I dunno whether wanna fell sad o unhappy o wat.. after my holiday i dint update my blog till now.. i feel that i dowan 2let other ppl 2talk about me.. my life.. n laugh at me.. but i really need a space 4myself 2express out my feeling.. i've never told my things to other ppl even my best fren.. i will just keep things 2myself.. i cant really tell them how i feel about.. how i react on.. cos from small till now i will just stay at a corner n cry by my own.. from my family problem till finance problem then love problem.. all also by my own.. i think now also.. shall i o shall not i tell out? i just cant figure it out lo.. mayb sumtimes i will then mayb sumtimes i won.. how? answer=dunno.. 2day i just suddenly think over that incident.. then my tears just roll down.. i really so jealous on tat.. he never ever use tat eyesight to look at me b4.. y untill so long d he still will look at her at that way? a sudden feeling.. but y is not on me but on her? i really cant 4get.. he always said that i got attitude problem n i know i had.. but is that wrong? is my attitude make u return back 2her?? tat really hurt me so much.. i think untill end of my life i will still remember.. iw anna stop tis relationship.. but i just cant.. every moment i keep think n think n think.. but i just cant make a decision.. i dunno whether i 4giv u is a correct decision o not.. but i know i cant really trust u.. when u r not wit me i will always think izit u r betraying me o wat.. is tat a relationship should be? is there any love btw us? o just a responsibility? u neva show how much u love me.. n neva show u had change.. but wat u have show is just an ordinary u.. sometimes i just need a real caring.. n a real love.. avthing now seems 2b ok but inside my heart there's always a hole there which cant b replace by anything.. wat should i do?? i really enjoy chit chat wit u.. i feel very relax n fun.. but when v go out.. avthing change.. v will fight 4small matters n u'll said my attitude.. it seems lik aavthing bcome my problem again.. wat an attitude problem i had.. so avone out there i had an attitude problem now!!!

Holiday- Day 10,,11,12,13, n 14

Wow.. so many days didnt update my blog le.. long holiday.. dunno busy off wat.. after going so many colleges feel so tired..had a very good sleep.. tot of thurs will go to ikea but didnt go also cos ky's sis said she also wanna go..but only can go on sat,sun or mon..but those three days also cant go.. then ky asked her fetch his mum go but she refuse..haiz.. so cant do anything then on friday 3 of us ma go there lo.. but little things also rm250 le.. really so expensive.. ppl went there not to buy their furniture but to get their ideas.. but i lik it.. n its too expensive 4me.. haiz.. wait until i get marry n rich d..i sure will buy its furniture.. it is so nice n also the money 2pay..hahaha.. on sat i hav to go my relative's house..he's getting marry.. congratulations!!! but i hate going there havto go social with all my aunty n uncle.. ask this ask that.. hate them so much.. pls don ever ever ever ask me about my father..thank u!! there's no point 4me 2 talk anything about him.. haiz.. but need 2ask 4my tuition fee.. i just don understand y every semester begin i havto suffer in asking n begging him 2pay 4my fees?? but tis time i really dowan ask anything lo.. just take the money i borrowed n pay later.. i feel more worth it.. nonit beg nonit cry just do it my own.. next day nite got dinner.. went to wash my hair.. wash d n styling.. after saw the magazine i like the hair style so much so i decided to cut it..haha.. wan means wan it now.. didnt think of it also.. but when cut d i feel so weird weird n weird.. keep laugh on myself..hahaha.. i cut bcos i 'bu si kuan' the previous hairstyle.. i will always put my haiz behing my ear then the hairstyle ma different d lo.. haiz..not nice.. it seem to b nice on the 1st day itself.. but didnt cut more worse.. it will bcome lik 'rumput' haha.. nvm la.. tis time cut till so short d wait until ky's 2nd sis only cut d la.. nite dinner at centro klang.. is a ballroom.. quite nice the environment but the food ma ma tei only lo.. on the way back saw someone tat i neva think of.. one of my best fren.. after tat incident.. i saw her twice.. both also i didnt say hi.. is bcos of ky o myself? i've no idea.. o bcos of her attitude n i'm angry on her.. mayb not now but i think in future it will b ok gua.. as wat shirley said.. time will make everything clear.. then back home time i saw a msg.. feel so sad.. stay at room cry n sleep n watch my tv.. doesn't wan to think o mention anything.. just wanna b happi.. i will angry cos i mine..but i 4giv cos i love.. haiz.. complicated.. 2day whole day didnt eat till dinner went to bukit tinggi jj.. went to vietnamese kitchen eat.. my 1st time o mayb my last time too.. hahha.. cos i cant afford it.. 4me it is too expensive lo.. tis time also ky's brother in law treat de.. thank u!! reach hime le.. nothing 2do.. 2mr start college le havent enroll cos the old man didnt pay.. 2mr must go enroll le.. hahaha.. new sem only 2subject but it is a short sem avthing double up..haiz.. hope tis 7weeks can go as fast as possible..

Holiday- Day 7,8 n 9

tis few days very busy.. now only got time to update my blog.. on monday i got meeting at the curve.. walao so far.. make my head dizzy only.. the discuss about the roadshow..then go to ikano's safari cos ky said wan go c animals lo.. oklo go there lo.. got fish.. so nice.. the got spider, snake, 'bian se long', hamster, n other more.. there also got dogs.. the dog i lik bcome ugly cos they cut their fur into an ugly shape.. the tail n behond leg botak.. so ugly.. at there i lik the dog.. male wan.. hyperactive but i 4get wat's the dog name le..hehe.. then the price with the same species wan different rm1000 le.. i told ky wan buy but is rm5000.. not worth it.. haha.. after v went home le.. at last can have a rest lo..midnite i sumo watch the kinship, country spirit.. wat a nice show..

next day.. got no meeting..nothing.. but i stay at house..do wat?? haha.. answer is GOTONG ROYONG.. only my room la.. haha.. change the position of my bed, my table, my tv,my cupboard, my dresses.. almost everything..but left my sis side.. so big d sumo wan me help her hang her clothes.. make the whole room dirty.. under the bed also got her stuff.. keep avthing n clean also took me wholeday.. i got limited space but many things..haiz.. dunno wanna put where.. all my books is on the boxes n where should i put those boxes le?? hten too many clothes..not enuff space in my cupboard..where should i put.. i need a bigger cupboard!!! but got no money to buy..haiz.. then mama say later i also wan get marry d wan la buy so many cupboard 4wat le.. haiz.. havto here squeeze abit there abit.. keep until late nite i also very tired d then now my table is clean but messy..haiz.. dunno when only can make it clear.. hope b4 sem start avthing is done lo..

today.. got meeting..havto go college 4 enrollment 1st.. wa..so many ppl..is only the 1st day.. my fren fail one subject so i very scare..then saw the lecturer..she scare me only.. said not i fail u but u fail me.. haiz.. at last my turn..lucky clear all d.. cant c my result..then wait lo..my another subject not in the computer n timetable.. i tot it didnt offer..scare me only.. then went for lunch at asia while waiting 4michelle to prepare the media kit.. then start our journey to colleges.. 1st v went o help university college.. is an underground college.. just like a tunnel..haha.. then utar..v wen t to the wrong place.. the office is on the other side..n the faculty is all in different place..haiz.. then segi college.. is just like a masjid..then inside is so grand..like hotel only.. so big.. wondering why inti is so small n greedy..haha next v went to monash.. wat a strict college.. the guard follow us until where v go..haha.. is lik a jail lik tat.. sunway college..v went missing there.. inside there v went to information center..the person ask us go student service dept then they asked us go maintenance..complicated la.. feel headache d.. haiz.. so overall

HELP College = Underground college
Utar = walk around college (cos havto walk, walk n walk)
SEGI College = Masjid college
Monash = Strict college
Sunway = Complicated college

after tis.. company ky to bkb training..b4 tat havto fetch pei back ss15.. saw an accident there..the uncle so rude..smash the guys specs.. wat la.. is just only an accident 4wat wan to smash ppl.. rude ppl means rude ppl..the reach the indoor bkb court.. talk wit elle there.. talk about many things lo.. gossiping..haha.. then back time very hungry n cold.. sumo jam.. on the way back saw two lorry spoilt in the middle of the road.. then car accident.. few cars bang 2gather.. all the car driver at the roadside there talking in the phone n avone is wet.. then another accident.. then one bus spoilt.. walao eh.. got so ngam anot o.. i also wondering.. haha.. at last reash esso mamak.. eat d watch movie n take bath..

today ky bcome driver.. drove us here n there.. sure very tired.. then he also flu le.. n now fever sumo.. ask him take the medic but he dowan then just ket him sleep lo.. haiz.. pity him la.. hope he will recover soon.. cos he seldom sick de.. sick d sumo wan take care of me.. love u..

Holiday- Day 3

2day didnt go anywhere lo..stay at house sleep till very late only wake up..after eat then go ky's house..his house now on renovation.. everything almost done.. so help 2wash the toilet..finish wash d then his stupid maid make it dirty again..waste my energy only..if i know then just sit down there only.. then his maid really STUPID!!! ask her do abit work then ngi ngi ngo ngo there..feel wanna slap her.. if is my turn..finish la her.. my mum will neva give her face..then finish our dinner wait ky find the camera lo.. haiz use finish d also dowan put back the original place.. make ppl find here n there.. neva think of other ppl wan..then reach home lo watch the 'ka hao yuet yuen' haha tai sei the ah hong.. tot only wan ruin ppl's family at last.. thank god! y just havto make mor eprob le.. just don understand..but in reality..she alo wan to satisfied n act for us to critize her only ma..is just her role.. haha..don hav her where got tat nice show.. rite? haha..

after tat..pack 4 2mr.. at last wait till tat day le.. going to malacca..n it make me think off tat miss su said tat in foreign country.. i 4get which country le.. malacca = asshole.. haha tat time she wearing a t-shirt stating malacca n ppl there laugh at here as she doesnt know anything hahahaha.. so ppl outside there who doesnt knkow about tis pls b aware.. don simply say malacca in foreign country..ppl will look at u..^^.. n i'm not be able 2update my blog 4next 3days.. i'll b back..hehe...

Holiday- Day2

2nd day of holiday.. went to pyramid.. have my lunch there went to Wendy's.. is my 1st visit.. erm no bad la the food but i think mcd is more worth it.. then the space there very small..ppl cant walk around also..then after lunch go walk walk lo.. got ntg 2buy cos pk d..no money = window shopping.. but feel very sleepy so just side at the walkway there.. saw a girl playing with the OTO shake.. then i also go play lo.. haha all my fats also shaking.. really got so many oil inside my body.. have to diet d la.. ppl walk pass by keep looking at me n the girl.. the girl really so high..keep shaking n shaking non stop.. so funny la her face.. then play wit the foot massage wan.. nothing special.. i think my house wan is better lo.. then go jalan jalan again lo..haiz my stupid attitude came out again.. i just cant make it a good day 4me n him.. i just wan 2make something happen..but at last i also control myself..haiz..hope he can understand my feeling lo..not i wan 2act lik it but i just cant control.. i always think tat it is a fake relationship.. i wan it 2b true.. hopefully it is really true..haiz.. need advice..need time..need secure..need guide n need many thing 2make it real or it is already real??? always a questionmark inside my heart..it seems 2b wit me always but i dunno it is real wit me or not.. or it is just a responsibility?? i force myself not 2think but i just appear in my mind.. later on went 4meeting.. i think it is just waste of my time.. avone report report report..no one is updated except a few of them then how about us? if u guys doesnt need us.. say so.. I'M NOT GOING 2B A FREE LABOR 4U GUYS!!! ALTHOUGH I AM NOW BUT NOT THE FULL!! ppl just cant make clear 4avthing.. i wait 4u..u wait 4me.. then till when only things will b done??? haiz.. i think it is the worse meeting i ever had in my life.. no objectives..no spirit..no manpower..no creativity..no motivation..no improvement..there's nothing on it..so it is NOT IMPORTANT at all..

nite went to cheras pasar malam..bought many things..haha..not my money lo.. walk till my leg also pain..3km le..then tired sumo..btu still can manage..back time sumo go mamak..really become a big fat gal d la.. av nite mamak..haiz..just cant get over it..haha.. reach house watch the 'ka hou yuet yuen'..walao so chi kek n kan cheong.. hate the sa yi n the ah hong..both of them wat also wan la.. GREEDY!! wan watch 2mr's episode d.. haha.. waiting 4ya..

end of the story of mine 2day.. Good Nite!! n Shirley..my dearest gambateh 4ur resit papaer.. love u o..muackx!!

Holiday- Day 1

today went to jusco bukit tinggi wit ky,mummy n my bro.. just simply walk here n there.. mummy wan to watson n post office.. i wan to go bank to update my bank book.. ky wan to cut his hair n my bro.. a follower..haha..everyone is having their own things 2do..

ky doesn't wan to go that apt inside jusco so v went to bukit tinggi's apt..haiz..then came back i just feel so moody.. bcos of wat i also dunno.. i just wondering things happened so fast.. i just couldnt accept it.. it make me think back to the past that hurt me so much.. i just couldnt trust.. will a person get hurt b4 easily trust the person back??? i tried but i just cant.. my heart will always think to other side..buit my heart still wan 2continue tis relationship

why cant he just understand in my point of view..haiz..at last i continue wit it.. I hope i can FORGET unhappy thing get become the real me with the real relationship.. now i still feel everything btw me n him is not reality.. just a dream..

Nite.. i 4get tat i have 2go meet pei.. luckily she called ky if not teruk ffk..haha.. after talk talk talk jer come.. feel so funny on pei's expression.. ppl outside pls don hurt other ppl with small actions.. so childish le...just remember "wat goes round comes round" later on me,ky n jer went for 2nd round.. walao eh.. really pok d la.. on 1st day holiday already pok.. then how am i going 2go through another 2weeks??? =(

BBDUH sem4 finals..

Haha.. at last 2day i finished my last paper.. feel so suffered during this final.. my time table is one day holiday then another day one paper.. the worse is all 8.00 AM in the morning.. haiz cant wake up then there's no one can fetch me go college.. luckily i managed 2get my transport go college.. dowan take ktm..if take ktm sure late..

This semester i keep skip class but luckily didnt get any warning letter unlike previous semesters sure got one warning letter wan.. this sem all also got finals then all also have to memorize except for marketing planning.. this time don know why just cant concentrate on my studies and feel lazy often.. but now after exam d feel lik wan study.. mayb because not enough preparation gua.. haiz.. this problem has bugger me for long time..

After finish my final paper, i went for a hair cut.. actually i also dunno wan to cut wat style just let the auntie decide for me lo.. erm quite nice lo.. not bad la.. at least my chubby face is not tat 'ming sien' haha.. i also dunno y suddenly will go cut hair.. haha mayb my hair previously like grass d.. see d also 'fan' . after tat, go sleep.. feel tat at last i can sleep properly.. suffered for 1 week d..cant get to sleep well..

now, holidaying lo.. yahoo!!! so 'chi tai' to go melaka tis friday n stay at Afamosa n go this saturday's 8tv summer live concert.. Melaka.. here i come!!!!